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Beis NissanChassidic date · 2 Nissan Yahrzeit of the Rebbe Rashab (1920) Assembled live from the corpus. Nothing on this page is stored or written ahead of time, so it grows as more stories are analyzed. About The Rebbe Rashab, and tied to Beis Nissan the day and its figureBoth at once: the day, and the figure whose day it is. "Tzav — Now and For All Generations"As I Heard Them, Vol. 1, p. 162, no. 42 R. Zavil Zeidenfeld would always recount this story with overwhelming hispa'alus: R. Yaakov Korinitzer told him in Rostov that days before the Rebbe's last Purim, the Rebbe gave him instructions about checking the wheat to be ground for shemurah matzah. The Rebbe concluded, "The term tzav (command) always refers to the present moment — and to future generations." Shtreimel and Maivir Sedrah After the MikvehAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 178-179, no. 66 While in Rostov on 2 Nissan 5695 (1935) as an emissary of Anash in Leningrad, the narrator was told by Shmuel Mendel, son of Yechiel the meshulach and a former attendant of the Rebbe Rashab, that he had witnessed something no one else had seen. On erev Shabbos, after immersing in the mikveh, the Rebbe would put on his shtreimel and review the weekly Torah portion with the Aramaic translation (maivir sedrah). Stories of The Rebbe Rashab whose day it isBeis Nissan is their day, so their stories belong on it even where the analysis did not tie them to the date. Seeing the Rebbe at the Ohel on Erev Rosh HashanahAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 133-134, no. 3 On erev Rosh Hashanah 5667 (1906) or 5668 (1907), while at the Ohel of the Tzemach Tzedek and the Rebbe Maharash, children told the narrator he could see the Rebbe standing inside by climbing the wall, since the ohel was open to the sky. He saw the Rebbe in a silk hat and black coat with a white silk scarf, holding a long pidyon sheet in one hand and a bundle of further requests in the other, his face extraordinarily pale; seized with terror, the narrator leaped down. He always regretted having jumped, until the Rebbe Rayatz's notes printed in Kuntres Beis Nissan 5710 extolled the merit of gazing at his father at the ohel, which filled him with joy. "Is This the One Whose Leg Hurt?"As I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 140-141, no. 12 In the summer of 5674 (1914) the narrator's brother fell ill with tuberculosis of the bone and was taken from Homil to Kiev for surgery, then a second and a third operation, after which he was very weak. The narrator wrote a pidyon and sent it to the Rebbe's summer dacha in Zalsha; an opening formed at the site, the phlegm drained, and the doctor, Kostritzky, said he had never seen such a thing. The narrator brought his brother to Lubavitch for Rosh Hashanah 5675, but with the war having begun on Tisha B'Av and the crowds immense they could not obtain yechidus, and lacking money to stay through Sukkos they had to leave on motzaei Yom Kippur; the Rebbetzin let him wait in the small room outside the yechidus room, and when the Rebbe finally emerged very late and the narrator said "This is my brother," the Rebbe asked, "This is the one whose leg hurt?" Why R. Yosef Ber Learned With the Greatest Scholars of BriskAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 199-200, no. 3 The Frierdiker Rebbe related that at a rabbinical conference in Petersburg, R. Chaim Brisker told him about his father R. Yosef Ber. A wealthy Brisk contractor, who worked to free Jewish prisoners, challenged the rov for spending his time learning seemingly irrelevant laws with the two greatest scholars of the town, 'Beryl the Hump' and the 'Klutz.' R. Yosef Ber answered that his learning with them is what keeps a chain of study alive down through the town — Gemara in one beis midrash, Mishnayos in another, householders who come daily, weekly, or only on Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur — down to the pharmacist's son who fasts and comes to shul; without it, the pharmacist's son would still fast but would not come to shul. When the Frierdiker Rebbe repeated this to his father, the Rebbe Rashab called it an avodah from above to below. The Fire That Stopped at One HouseAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 169-170, no. 53 The narrator cites the popular saying that the ministering angel of fire flees before the ministering angel of Torah, and says he saw it himself. When a fire broke out at the home of Yehoshua the shamash opposite the Rebbe's court in Lubavitch, wagon-drivers filled the courtyard to be paid to carry out its contents; the blaze grew huge, Lubavitch had no water system and the wind was strong. The Rebbe Rashab came out, walked through the courtyard, stood opposite the burning house and looked intently at the fire — and only that one house burned, though ordinarily whole streets would go up. The narrator adds that in Homil, when a neighbor's house belonging to a gentile named Krasnitzky burned in the middle of the night, his zeide went out, looked at the fire, and it subsided. "Trust Me" — The Birthday LeChaim and the Miracle of Yud-Beis TammuzAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 268-269, no. 110 On Yud-Beis Tammuz, after being unofficially informed of his freedom, the Rebbe related that on Yud-Beis Tammuz 5654 (1894), his fourteenth birthday, they were on vacation and his father the Rebbe Rashab poured LeChaims. The Rashbatz asked where he had seen such a practice — by his father or his grandfather — and the Rashab answered, "Trust me"; the Rebbe concluded, "And I am grateful to him." Years later, in a yechidus about birthdays, the narrator told the story and the Rebbe Shlita corrected his understanding: the gratitude was directed to the Rashbatz, whose question drew from the Rebbe Rashab the words "Trust me" — and that, said the Rebbe, was the miracle of Yud-Beis Tammuz. A Tzaddik's Glance in PetrogradAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 216-217, no. 30 The Rebbe (Rayatz) told Chaim Amstislovsky that he became who he was from a tzaddik's glance. Reb Chaim would relate how, as a tall, handsome and wealthy young man walking in Petrograd, R. Yitzchak Yoel Rafaelovitch — the Kremenchug rov's son — told him the Lubavitcher Rebbe (the Rebbe Rashab) was in town, and after great effort he was admitted to yechidus. He was so shaken he did not know whether it was day or night, remembering only the Rebbe Rashab's words, "May you be successful wherever you turn." He noted that only the day before he had stood before Comrade Soldier Minister Bilyovsky and spoken without a trace of fear, yet before the Rebbe he was utterly nullified. The Blue Teakettle Between the CushionsAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, p. 176, no. 63 R. Pinchas, son of R. Eliyahu Chaim Althoiz, related what he heard from the Rebbe Rayatz: late one erev Shabbos in Lubavitch his father had the large blue teakettle brought in and placed it himself between two cushions. R. Asher, the shochet of Nikolayev, was there that Shabbos, and after Chassidus his father called him to the table and told him to make Kiddush over liquor, wash, eat a kazayis of challah, and drink all the tea in the kettle. Afterwards his father explained that R. Asher had wanted to fast a hafsakah from Shabbos to Shabbos and had come to Lubavitch to ask; since he had already fasted through Wednesday, the Rebbe told him to complete the fast. "Do As The Mashpi'im Say" — Yud-Tes Kislev 5673 in LubavitchAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 141-142, no. 13 The narrator's brother Baruch studied in the Shedrin branch of Tomchei Temimim and, though he answered all his examination questions in nigleh and Chassidus when he came to Lubavitch for Rosh Hashanah 5673, he was told to remain another year in Shedrin; the Rebbe told him to follow the mashpi'im's instructions. When the narrator's father came to Lubavitch for Yud-Tes Kislev of that year and mentioned at the end of yechidus that his heart was weak, the Rebbe answered that his children were frail as well, and that he had sent the younger one back to Shedrin because it was better there in gashmius. Returning home, the father came straight from the train station burning with hispa'alus and described the Rebbe's motzaei Shabbos farbrengen that ran from 11 p.m. until seven in the morning, at which the Rebbe said lechaim on 57% mashkeh, said that Above and Below must be made equal, and drank whole glasses; the giluyim, he testified, were extraordinary. How the Rebbe Rashab Received PidyonosAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 231-232, no. 50 The narrator recalls an erev Rosh Hashanah in Lubavitch, in a year he does not remember, when the Rebbe Rashab came out repeatedly through the red door to receive pidyonos while his son, the Rebbe Rayatz, stood watching for a long time. On Yud-Tes Kislev of 5685 or 5686, the Rebbe Rayatz described how his father took pidyonos differently from different people — from some in his hand, from others between his fingers — and told Pinchas ben R. Binyomin Althoiz that as a small child his pidyon had been taken between the fingers, as from those closest, and that this should be a meditation for his whole life and for his entire "otriad," of which he is the leader. The Rebbe added that he had wanted to go in with everyone, and after the "soaring" and "descent" wanted to be with him alone. Rashag Opened Jewish HeartsAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 219-221, no. 36 At a Yud-Tes Kislev farbrengen in 5685 or 5686, the Rebbe related that his father had received a letter from the Rav of Chevron reporting that missionaries were trying to buy the shul held by tradition to be Avraham Avinu's, and that 25,000 rubles were needed for a counteroffer. Father and son traveled to Moscow, where a meeting of Moscow gvirim went badly until R. Shmuel Gurary offered to give the entire sum on condition that the shul be purchased in the Rebbe's name, sending in the morning a note and a check for 5,000 rubles though he was then deeply in debt. When the Rebbe brought the note and check to his father, his father said: Rasag accomplished the opening of Jewish minds, and Rashag accomplished the opening of Jewish hearts. I Leave You the WritingsAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 362-363, no. 8 The narrator notes that chassidic farbrengens open with an introduction, and recounts that at a Kiddush commemorating R. Leivik's hilulah he related that his zeide heard first-hand from the Tzemach Tzedek that the Alter Rebbe had said, "On whom are you relying? My door in Gan Eden will be concealed from you," and that the Rebbe Rashab said, "I'm going to Heaven; I leave you the writings." In Rostov the narrator heard a different version: "The writings and my son I leave with you." He adds that Yosef Nemotin, grandson of R. Yehoshua Nemotin, told him that R. Leivik said before his passing, "It will take a little time; it's necessary to journey to another world, a higher world." The Melamdim Got Whatever Was in the PocketAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 195-196, no. 91 R. Yisroel Neveler related in the name of the gvir R. Nosson Gurary that R. Nosson traveled with the Rebbe Rashab to the Alter Rebbe's ohel in Haditch, where both gvirim and melamdim were to enter yechidus. The Rebbe instructed that the melamdim be admitted first and the gvirim afterwards, but R. Nosson reversed the order and told the gvirim to leave their contributions on the table. At the train station the Rebbe asked R. Nosson whether he had money for the tickets; when R. Nosson, who knew the gvirim had left money, was astonished, the Rebbe explained that since the melamdim came in afterwards there was money on hand, and he gave them whatever was in his pocket. Also falling on Beis Nissan the date itselfTied to the date, but about someone other than The Rebbe Rashab. "Maybe Then I Will Daven Better"As I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 170-171, no. 55 In 5685 (1925) the tomim R. Yisroel Zuravitzer — R. Yisroel Jacobson, who lived in Homil — was in Leningrad, and the Frierdiker Rebbe sent him to Rostov for Beis Nissan. Coming out of yechidus he reported that the Rebbe had told him to speak at the ohel as one speaks in yechidus — "Rebbe, I am a shliach of my mother, you know her name, and of myself" — and to go to the ohel early, since for him it would be after davening while for the Rebbe it would be before davening, "maybe as a result I will daven better." The narrator testifies that on that Beis Nissan, after Shemoneh Esrei and before chazaras hashatz, the Rebbe signaled him to bring a chair and sat down, so exhausted was he from his davening. Boarding the Train to the Ohel Every Beis NissanAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 424-425, no. 13 Half a year after the deaths in his family, on 2 Nissan 5680 (1920), the Rebbe Rashab passed away in Rostov — a difficult period for R. Zalman Duchman, who had been so connected to him. His love for the Rebbe Rashab drove him to make the long and arduous trip to the Ohel for the yahrtzeit every year. Before Beis Nissan he would board the train to Rostov without knowing what lay ahead, even though Communist spies rode the trains watching for "suspicious persons" and anti-Semitic thugs regularly attacked anyone they recognized as Jewish. His burning desire to be by his Rebbe on that day made him ignore those fears. R. Zalman Duchman's Passing, and the Rebbe's Mashkeh at the Purim FarbrengenAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 465-466, no. 76 R. Zalman Duchman passed away on the 8th of Adar I 5730 (1970) and was buried in the Old Montefiore Cemetery near the Ohel; because of a gravediggers' strike, chassidim dug the grave themselves. About a month later, at the Purim farbrengen, the Rebbe gave mashkeh to R. Yisroel Duchman and others who were in the year of mourning for a parent, to distribute to the crowd so that they could take part in the joyous occasion. At the Beis Nissan farbrengen that year the Rebbe mentioned R. Zalman by name, quoting his expression that fifty years since the Rebbe Rashab's passing is a 'Jubilee.' "It Is the Same Father, But With Greater Strength"As I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 427-428, no. 15 R. Zalman Duchman, whose bond with the Rebbe Rashab had been deeply soulful, at first could not bring himself to accept another Rebbe in his place, even though he held the Frierdiker Rebbe in immense respect. After consideration and effort he became strongly attached to the Frierdiker Rebbe and his dedicated chossid as well. He later wrote that he had asked himself, "If my father is not here, can I take another father?" and only afterwards understood: "it is the same father, but with greater strength." More loosely connected directTagged to Beis Nissan, but at a weaker strength. "It Is the Same Father"As I Heard Them, Vol. 1, p. 251, no. 88 The narrator recalls receiving the bitter news of the Rebbe's passing on Yud Shevat 5710 (1950), falling to the ground with only his lips moving: "We are lost, we are lost." He recalls hearing from the senior chassidim that chassidim who said "he" in every generation were mistaken, and admits that after the Rebbe Rashab's passing he himself had asked, "If my father is not here, can I take another father?" — until he grasped that it is the same father, with even greater strength. He adds that when he came for Rosh Hashanah 5683 (1922), the Rebbe told him at his first yechidus, "We provide parnassah for our children." Short enough to tell in passing thematicRelated by subject and under 3 minutes to tell. Sh'u Yedeichem Kodesh: Mochin and MidosAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 273-274, no. 116 In the middle of the seudah the Rebbe said that Chassidus should really be spoken but it was not an appropriate time — and then, saying so anyway, began. He related that the first Chassidus the Alter Rebbe said upon leaving the Tainy Soviet was on the verse "Sh'u yedeichem kodesh," because the Alter Rebbe and the Mitteler Rebbe held seemingly different perspectives: the Alter Rebbe considered lev (heart) most important, the Mitteler Rebbe mochin (mind). When the Alter Rebbe came from Petersburg he told the Mitteler Rebbe, "You are correct, only that we must ensure that mochin illuminate the midos" — explaining the verse as mochin being kodesh and midos being "your hands," which must be lifted so that mochin illuminate them. The narrator adds that this is what he remembers, that a few words may be missing, but that he has not added a single letter. Sobered in an Instant in the Rebbe's CourtyardAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 352-353, no. 53 The narrator's zeide, Mordechai Yoel, related that the Rebbe Maharash held Reb Aizel of Homil's Chassidus in high regard — though he called him "der Hieger" or "der Homiler" and reserved the title "Rebbe" for the Tzemach Tzedek — since he had been Reb Aizel's outstanding disciple. Early one summer morning, walking through the Rebbe's courtyard after a late farbrengen and a generous measure of mashkeh, the zeide was called over by the Rebbe Maharash at the window. When the conversation turned to Reb Aizel's Chassidus, the zeide said with a nigun that the Rebbe and his children do not need it, but the Rebbe's grandchildren and ordinary chassidim should learn it. Glancing up as he finished, he saw the Tzemach Tzedek in the second window — and, as he recounted, he sobered instantly and fled. The Swallowed Safety Pin and the MagnetAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 476-478, no. 21 R. Yisroel Duchman sought to teach his children hiskashrus, and some of his most important interactions with the Rebbe concerned them. When his second son Yossi was a young child he swallowed an open safety pin that lodged in his esophagus beyond the reach of instruments; doctors planned surgery, warning of possible negative consequences while saying that leaving the pin could be life-threatening, and R. Yisroel said he would consent to nothing before consulting the Rebbe. The Rebbe objected to the surgery and asked that the scheduled surgeon speak with him; the surgeon refused, so the Rebbe spoke by phone with the head of the emergency room and gave precise instructions for removing the pin by lowering a strong magnet down the boy's throat, which worked without difficulty. Afterward the original surgeon insisted on telling the Duchmans that had his own father, himself a doctor, claimed to remove such a pin without surgery he would not have believed him — it was possible only because of their holy Rebbe; and years later, when the grown Yossi asked his father to request a blessing, the Rebbe gave a generous bracha and added, "You can tell Yossi, I think about him more than he thinks about me." A Fourteen-Year-Old Walks to LubavitchAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 75-76, no. 2 The narrator's grandfather had such retention that he had no need for the chozer's repetition of a maamar. When chassidim returned from Lubavitch reporting that the Rebbe Rashab recited maamarim lasting several hours, he said he could not have absorbed them, and when they later reported that the maamarim were growing shorter, he said that as the Rebbe rises higher the maamarim will be shorter still. At fourteen he set out on foot to Lubavitch with a group of older chassidim; at an inn along the way a distinguished Jew berated him for a child going off to Lubavitch, and he answered that after they ate he would reply. When they finished he said, "Show me where there is a difference between a boy who is bar mitzvah and an eighty-year-old Jew," and the man — a chossid of the Alter Rebbe — embraced and kissed him. Yad Ramah at the Train StationAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 261-262, no. 100 The Rebbe had asked that a large crowd be at the station when he boarded the train to Kostrama for three years of exile, but word was hard to spread and most who came arrived early. On Sunday at dusk, the third of Tammuz, the chassidim formed two lines as the Rebbe approached the train, and R. Binyamin Althoiz said at the door that after his imprisonment in Petersburg the Alter Rebbe had begun leading with a high hand (yad ramah). The Rebbe replied that the Shavuos maamarim discuss three "hands" — yad hagdolah, yad hachazakah and yad ramah — and that ramah signifies Kesser and has the letters of koress: all the enemies should be cut off. By the time the narrator reached the station the Rebbe was already standing at the window of the yellow second-class car. Is This Why You Had Mesiras Nefesh in Russia?As I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 488-489, no. 9 In Toronto the Rebbe encouraged R. Eliyahu to devote himself to education, and he took a position in a Talmud Torah. Friends repeatedly pressed him toward lucrative business ventures — some who entered them became millionaires — but the Rebbe answered him: being so qualified in education, is this why you had mesiras nefesh in Russia and endured everything to reach Canada, to become a businessman? He stayed in chinuch al pi taharas hakodesh for life, never arriving late once in thirty-six years, was honored at an Eitz Chaim Talmud Torah dinner attended by five hundred people, founded the first Chabad institution in Toronto with R. Yosef Assulski funding a shul and mikva, and served two decades as a spiritual guide in Gan Yisroel camp. "A Person Can Live With a Heart Defect"As I Heard Them, Vol. 1, p. 224, no. 40 On Purim a young man submitted a pidyon nefesh through the gabbai R. Elchanan for a relative in Homil who suffered from heart disease, and at the Purim seudah that stretched into a farbrengen he asked the Rebbe aloud for a bracha for Zalman. The Rebbe spoke into his ear that he had already read the pidyon carefully, and that if the sick man would take upon himself the support of a cheder, the Rebbe would take his illness upon himself, striking his own heart and saying that a person can live with a heart defect. He added that ordinarily in yechidus he sits with a cigarette and says nothing even while his insides churn — but this time he was telling him. The Nigun of a BeinoniAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 279-280, no. 125 The narrator heard the Rebbe speak twice in Leningrad about the nigun known in Lubavitch as 'The Beinoni' (Sefer HaNigunim #46). Once, apparently on Yud-Tes Kislev 5687, the Rebbe said that he himself was not a singer but his father was, and that when Aharon Charitonov, the shochet of Nikolayev, composed the nigun, had he only pictured himself standing in yechidus before his father — something is missing. On motzaei Yom Kippur 5688, after the nigun was sung, the Rebbe said, "This is a nigun of a beinoni. What is a beinoni? You know. Then why aren't you...?" The narrator later wrote the story to the Rebbe in Brooklyn, concluding that each person can find the meaning within himself, and the Rebbe concurred. "After Kol Nidrei They're Already Singing?!"As I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 337-338, no. 36 R. Yosef Lubavitcher, known as Der Fetter Yosele and an uncle of the Tzemach Tzedek, spent Yom Kippur in Chernigov, where R. Nochum Chernigover — a student of Reb Aizel and a chossid of the Mitteler Rebbe — served as rov. Before Kol Nidrei he took his place along a wall and stood there until the following evening. When the customary joyous singing broke out after Neilah, he ran to R. Nochum and protested, "What an unprincipled city you have! After Kol Nidrei they're already singing?!" The narrator's zeide told the story to describe the depth of the chassidim of earlier generations. The Trunk of Manuscripts and "Sha!"As I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 430-432, no. 22 R. Zalman first met the Rebbe -- then known as the Frierdiker Rebbe's future son-in-law -- in Tishrei 5683 (1922) in Rostov, and afterward met him often in Leningrad, where the Rebbe would visit the Frierdiker Rebbe alone or with his brother R. Yisroel Aryeh Leib. On the 15th of Sivan 5687 (1927) the N.K.V.D. came to arrest the Frierdiker Rebbe and searched the house for incriminating evidence; the Rebbe, who was not home, went at once with R. Elyeh Chaim Althoiz to hide whatever documents could be used against him, and that evening deposited a trunk of manuscripts with R. Zalman for safekeeping. A later exchange of letters is quoted: the Rebbe recalled entrusting him with the sacred documents, and R. Zalman replied that he had returned the large box of manuscripts on the 12th of Tammuz while the Rebbe sat on the west side of the study hall, and that the Rebbe then told him that in return for his efforts he would give him good news -- that the Rebbe would return from exile in time for Shabbos. Once at a Yud-Beis Tammuz farbrengen in 770, R. Zalman rose and said that if the chassidim knew of the Rebbe's part in the Frierdiker Rebbe's release their celebration would be far greater; the Rebbe turned to him and said "Sha!", and R. Zalman never disclosed anything further. The Suitcase in PetersburgAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 111-112, no. 57 The narrator's zeide told how the Tzemach Tzedek, in Petersburg for the government ministry conference, fought intensely against the authorities' plans. Asked where his determination came from, he said it lay in his suitcase; when they opened it they found his burial shrouds. The minister replied, "You are looking to sacrifice your life, but we only give lashings." The zeide also related that when the children objected that their mother would be terrified by the shrouds, the Tzemach Tzedek answered that this was exactly what he wanted — that she should beg the Eibershter for help, since she is truly the daughter of a Torah sage. Trading One Mitzvah for AnotherAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 211-212, no. 21 The Rebbe told how the Alter Rebbe, when it was time to enroll the Mitteler Rebbe in cheder, summoned the melamed and proposed in his customary nigun to trade one mitzvah for another: the Alter Rebbe's mitzvah of V'shinantam l'vanecha for the melamed's mitzvah of sustaining his young children. He handed his son over to learn alef-beis, explaining that an alef is a dot above, a dot below, and a line between them. The Rebbe then told R. Pinchas ben Eliyahu Chaim Althoiz that enrolling one's child in Torah study accomplishes the same as the Kohen Gadol in the Holy of Holies — drawing G-dliness down into the world. Related by subject thematicStories about the subjects this occasion concerns. What Sort of Chossid Sleeps Until NineAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 204-206, no. 12 At Simchas Torah 5685 (1924) in Leningrad, the Rebbe Rayatz spoke passionately against the chossid who sleeps until nine, has davened and eaten by ten, and then strolls Nevsky Street looking where he should not, imagining that a kapotah and gartel or three rubles given to the Rebbe make him a chossid. He cited R. Hillel Paritcher's remark that he does not care for one who strayed and did teshuvah — who knows what sort of teshuvah it was — and explained the teaching that baalei teshuvah stand where perfect tzaddikim cannot: the baal teshuvah is not the same person, he is someone else. He then turned to a young man from Kherson living in Moscow, told him "It's not you," and instructed him to accept divrei chavrus and give a Kiddush on Shabbos Bereishis, adding that everyone must accept upon himself not to sleep past seven in the morning. Purim 5687: "I Accept Upon Myself the Four Executions"As I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 256-257, no. 95 At a terrifying Purim farbrengen in 5687 (1927), the Rebbe screamed against the Yevsektzia — 'a rabbi's son, a butcher's son, a villager's son' — declaring he was not frightened of them, and unbuttoned his kapota until his tallis katan showed, calling out that he accepted upon himself the four forms of execution and that when they saw his body aflame they should have no compassion. When the chossid R. Meir Simcha shouted that the Rebbe was needed here, the Rebbe kept repeating that one must be ready to give one's life but must not send the children to their schools. Because informers were known to be present, those there called his mother the Rebbetzin to restrain him; he rose when she came but sent her back to her room to say Tehillim with tears where no one would see, saying that would help, and told her he was not acting on his own initiative but had asked his father. She kept standing and speaking until he fainted and barely revived; everyone was in dread, and the arrest came after Shavuos. How Reb Aizel's Father Came Around at the SederAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 302-303, no. 35 The zeide related Reb Aizel's own account of how he became a chossid of the Alter Rebbe: whenever the Alter Rebbe heard of a promising young scholar he would send a shliach to draw him close to Chassidus, and such a shliach came to Homil after Sukkos and brought Reb Aizel to Liozna. Returning home for Pesach, Reb Aizel established a minyan davening nusach Chabad, but his father R. Mordechai — who spent much time in Leipzig and kept his distance from chassidim — returned shortly before Pesach and forbade him, on the grounds of honoring one's father, from davening there. At the seder, hearing his son's brilliant expositions on the Haggadah, R. Mordechai understood that Chassidus had not harmed him, permitted him to return to the minyan the next morning, joined the minyan himself for the rest of Pesach, and by Shavuos traveled with Reb Aizel to Liozna. Gimmel Tammuz: The Rebbe Comes Home from ShpalerkaAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 396-398, no. 25 While the Rebbe was imprisoned in Shpalerka, chassidim received reports from contacts inside the G.P.U., so already on Friday they knew he was to be released, and Shabbos morning davening was delayed in anticipation. On Sunday, the third of Tammuz, the narrator and his brother-in-law R. Yitzchak Minkovitch had stepped out when Pinya (Pinchas ben R. Binyomin Althoiz) came running to tell them the Rebbe was already home; they ran back and found him sitting in the children's room. Asked whether they had learned Chassidus during that time, the brother-in-law answered that they had said Tehillim, and the Rebbe replied that he had written the maamarim of Shavuos until they saw him and took away the pencil; hours later he brought out the maamarim, one inscribed "written in prison, 19 Sivan 5687" (Anochi) and the second (Vaydaber) "20 Sivan 5687," the last word written being Or. Later, at the dacha in Malachovka, the narrator asked for the conclusion of the maamar and the Rebbe answered, "It does not write itself." At the departure the chassidim formed two rows; R. Binyomin Althoiz began to speak and the Rebbe stopped, answering a remark about the Alter Rebbe leading b'yad ramah after Petersburg with the vort said on Shavuos on yad hagedolah, yad hachazakah and yad ramah — ramah being keser, the letters of kares, may it be 'v'chol oyvecha yikoreisun.' At the station the Rebbe stood at the open window of a yellow second-class car; Rebbetzin Shterna Sarah approached and he said to her, "Mama, it says yehi Hashem Elokeinu imanu ka'asher hayah im avoseinu — surely there will also be al ya'azvenu v'al yitesheinu," and to those seeing him off, "An altogether unnecessary journey," adding, "You will presumably say Yevarechecha." Kalman of Nevel at the Ministers' BanquetAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 278-279, no. 124 When the Soviet government forbade instruction in cheders, the Rebbe traveled to Moscow to find people close to the government who could offset the law. He sent word through Rav Rafael Kahn that Kalman of Nevel should go stay with his daughter, whose husband Bogdanov held an important government position; when Kalman objected that his son-in-law had nothing to do with education, the Rebbe told him not to leave Moscow and to remain as his daughter's guest. At a banquet in that home attended by government officials, Kalman was asked what he thought of the new government and answered that it was wonderful, but why would they not allow Jewish children to study Torah. Influential people connected with education were present, and afterwards a law was issued permitting instruction for up to six children. The Guest Who Needed His Own RoomAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 429-430, no. 21 R. Zalman's poverty was dreadful -- when Chaya Grunya pointed out that their chairs were so battered it was an embarrassment to have them around, he could only suggest moving them to a room where they would not be seen -- yet he never hesitated to bring guests home, and his tiny apartment had a partition set up to make a sleeping area for them. Every Shabbos after davening he brought home the most unfortunate individuals; when his wife wondered whether there were any normal guests needing a meal, he explained that by the time he finished davening the shul was empty and only these people remained. One day a Yid came needing a place to stay, and R. Zalman gave him his own "private quarters" while the family crowded into the other cordoned area; in the middle of the night loud moaning was heard from behind the curtain and R. Zalman watched over him the whole night. The family later realized the man suffered from epilepsy and that R. Zalman had placed him apart so as to spare embarrassment, and his children took on the same extraordinary kindness -- sharing their food with guests and giving away their own beds while they slept on the floor in a corner. Thicker, and Thicker StillAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, p. 31, no. 4 As a small boy the zeide stood in Reb Aizel's sukkah while the s'chach was being piled on very thickly, and asked why, given the halachah that the stars should be visible through the s'chach. Reb Aizel answered that he had been with the Rebbe in Liozna when the s'chach was laid, and the Rebbe stood and motioned with his holy hands: thicker, and thicker still — and then cried out, "And I can't do it any other way!" The narrator adds that his zeide, named for his two grandfathers Reb Mordechai (a chossid of the Alter Rebbe) and Yoel (a businessman), was always puzzled that both the Tzemach Tzedek and Reb Aizel nonetheless called him Yoel'ke. Gimmel Tammuz: The Condition at the Door of ShpalerkaAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, p. 259, no. 98 On Gimmel Tammuz, when the Rebbe came out of Shpalerka, he entered the study hall, sat on a bench near the aron hakodesh, and said, 'It's a plan and we must know this — it's a libel from there.' He then said that he had seen Hashgacha Pratis at the door of Shpalerka and had thought at that moment: 'Do I take upon myself to continue writing about children's education and Torah schools? If so, it will be good; otherwise, there will be repercussions' — alluding to the verse in Bereishis. He added that a secretary had asked whether he needed to communicate anything to his home, and since she was the one who offered, he decided to refuse. The Maamarim Written in Prison, Until They Took Away the PencilAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 260-261, no. 99 When the narrator and his brother-in-law Yitzchak Minkovitch came into the children's room, the Rebbe asked whether they had learned Chassidus during the period of his imprisonment; they answered that they had recited Tehillim. The Rebbe said that he himself had written maamarim until his pencil was taken away. A few hours later he gave them the Shavuos maamarim, inscribed "Written in prison, 19 Sivan 5687" and "Written in prison, 20 Sivan 5687"; the last word of the text was "light." When the narrator later asked in Malachovka for the end of the maamar, the Rebbe answered, "Nothing more came." The Sack That Stayed FullAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 375-376, no. 13 An elder Chernobyler chossid passing through Leningrad told of a chossid who used to fast from one Shabbos to the next and was told by his teacher that this was unnecessary. The chossid objected that the Baal Shem Tov fasted from Shabbos to Shabbos during his solitary meditations. His teacher answered that the Baal Shem Tov took a sack full of food with him when he walked the mountains from Kitov to Kosov, and only on Friday discovered the sack was still full — his 'I have forgotten to eat my bread' came from deveikus to G-dliness, not from undertaking a fast. For Whom Is the Yud-Tes Kislev Joy?As I Heard Them, Vol. 1, p. 33, no. 7 On Yud-Tes Kislev in the Lubavitcher shul in Homil, Reb Aizel demanded excitedly to know why everyone had gathered, omitted tachnun and was drinking mashkeh. He answered that the joy cannot be for the Rebbe's sake — to the Rebbe it was all the same whether he sat in the Taini Soviet prison or lay at home in bed — but rather "LaHashem hayeshuah": without the liberation we would not have known there is a G-d in the world. "Now go dance!" Der zeide added that in his youth he said Chassidus on this idea, and that he could say Chassidus on any subject and would single out each Yom-Tov or chassidic festival as higher than all the rest. The Hatmaker Who Sews for Whoever BuysAs I Heard Them, Vol. 1, pp. 85-86, no. 16 Introducing a story he had written, the Rebbe said at a farbrengen in New York that whoever repeats a statement in the name of its author brings redemption to the world, and that everyone is obligated in this. The Tzemach Tzedek had said, "I'm like someone who sews hats. Later on, when someone buys the hat, it's a sign that I had sewn it for him." The narrator also heard in Lubavitch from R. Groinem the mashpia that the Tzemach Tzedek said, "I have no one specifically in mind when I discuss a spiritual predicament. But if someone thinks I am talking about him — then indeed I mean him." |